April always feels like new beginnings. Perhaps this is proximity to springtime, the sun returning after too many months of grey skies. Or maybe, focusing on filling an empty page every day is reason enough to feel the magic of possibility.

You see, dear reader, April is National Poetry Month, which means I will once again attempt to pen a poem each day. If successful, I will have written thirty new poems. While I have challenged myself for the last three years, 2020 was the first in which I found true success.

Throughout the past month or so, I found myself looking back. And I stumbled upon the exploration of last year’s challenge in What We Called the April Poems. But seeing as we’re one day away from April, I’m excited to extend an invitation to poets and writers alike to join me in this pursuit!

What does this challenge entail?

Combine three rules with a dash of inspiration and you get the April Poems. I will be posting daily on this blog with three words and some inspiring aesthetics. Here’s hoping that you, dear readers and writers, will share your triumphs and trials faced during this next month.

Rule #1: Three words

The most important rule is the implementation of three words. There is no word count, no strict structure to the pieces written, only these words as a guide. Instead of seeing them as a limitation, they’ve always forced me to flex my creative muscles a bit more than usual. Assigned by the best friend, I have no way of knowing ahead of time where the words will take me.

Rule #2: Stream-of-Consciousness

As I have always been habitual in my need to overthink, this commitment to stream-of-consciousness writing ensures I don’t have the capacity to get stuck in my mind. Explained a little more concisely, the style of SOC captures a continuous flow of uninterrupted thoughts. And staying true to the fleeting feel of words without editing continues to hone my voice and strengthen the craft of my poetry.

Rule #3: Don’t look back

While this may seem like it goes hand-in-hand with the second rule, I can assure you, this extends beyond the moment of writing. Throughout the month, I don’t look back to find a theme or central character or to edit any previous days' poems. However, like many writers, my obsessions still exist. There is a bit of a treasure hunt that occurs once the month concludes and I read the poems in full, laying the groundwork for a possible chapbook or collection. As humans, we’re constantly making connections.

Though the last year has been anything but normal, I do find a sense of comfort in tradition, in dreaming big, in creative pursuits. Sure, I have no idea where these April Poems will take me. And yes, I know many writers can’t face any other unknowns. Even if you only write one poem or journal entry, a short story or opening to your next novel, there is power to be found in community. This lesson is one I’m grateful to have learned from my writing group and the phenomenal authors we had the honor of publishing in Pages Penned in Pandemic: A Collective.

No matter the chaos or darkness of the world, I have hope that together we will craft some new words into existence. Sharing stories is something I will never take for granted. Here’s to the next new beginning.

There is something to be said of celebrating successes, no matter how small they may be. During the difficult days we've faced throughout the last few months, this feels more important than ever.

In an attempt to celebrate my friends' birthdays, I collected the 30 poems I wrote during April into a book. Now titled Things We Left on the Mantle, I couldn't help but include the additional moniker: or What We called the April Poems. This name was lovingly given to these gems in the months since being written exclusively on my iPhone’s Bear app.

This book is dedicated to the bests who live on opposite coasts, but never fail to come together on FaceTime to remind me that goodness can obliterate even the darkest of days. But it must be said, that the endeavor to follow National Poetry Month to its end would not have been possible without the daily feedback from Amanda K. and Uriah, the additional words from Amanda M., and to the fellow writers from One For One Thousand for their existence and unknowing reminder that photos can do wonders for framing narratives.

Through compiling those daily words and poems into a tangible book, I found myself celebrating not only the accomplishment of persevering, but also the beauty of vulnerable words, some true, most only half, but penned into existence nonetheless. And though this collection is unpublished, unedited, and perhaps only temporarily titled, it became real the moment the words left my mind.

So why are these specific poems so special if they're unpublished, unedited, etc?

I think too often writers and non-writers alike get caught up in the validation of someone else proclaiming words matter. Or that those words are only important once published and placed in the world. Don't misunderstand, dear, reader, the feeling of publication is a uniquely boasting and bashful beast, one which continues to thill every time. However, I've come to the point in my writing journey when I know enough to take a breath and a minute to revel in my ability, to feel gratitude for my perseverance, to agree when people tell me they love my big, beautiful brain. I love it, too. I'm trying to find that happy medium between humility and pride, and I think this book has struck that balance.

What makes this year noteworthy?

You didn't really ask, but I suppose it's something, dear reader, that you may wish to know. While I attempted to write poems throughout the months of Aprils past, this was the first in which I accomplished one every day for the entire month.

But where does such a compulsory urge to write every day come from?

Well, such an entreaty always feels necessary during National Poetry Month. It's my way of honoring my life as a poet, as a reader of poetry, as someone who picks apart song lyrics in the hopes there might be lyrical poetics beneath the production. The more poems I wrote, the more I wanted to write. I found safety on the page.

What made this April so different from those in the past?

While staying safe inside the walls of my home, I found the need to escape into words more desperately than ever before. Working on the daily poems felt profound and cathartic and steady during the early weeks of upheaval. For the first 8 days of the poems, the narrators never ventured beyond closed doors. At the urging of one of the bests, I took April 9th on a road trip just to feel like I, too, was experiencing the outside world while maintaining social distancing. And there was a sense of the exceptional each time I followed the rules I set forth.

Why would you impose rules on yourself?

Great question, dear reader! Some many years before now, I started sending stream-of-consciousness writings to the other best. Many poems came out of such efforts. To make these more difficult, we started assigning words for the other person to incorporate. Thus the first, but most useful rule was integrated into my month-long project.

Rule #1: Three words

Some days there were more than three, but every day had words provided by someone other than myself. Only one word was left out, but I promise, it was quite difficult to render within the writing, and that was after I was able to successfully include the word necrophile. There is a thrill I get at finding a rhythm to the writing, being guided by those assigned words. Sometimes it felt like a steady rainstorm, other days an endless spiral.

Rule #2: Stream-of-Consciousness

This seemed like the most obvious to apply, as it ensures the ephemeral is captured on the page without overthinking. I'm habitual in my need to overthink, but staying true to the fleeting feel of words being written all at once without editing helped hone my voice and strengthen the craft of the poems as the month progressed.

Rule #3: Don’t look back

While this may seem like it goes hand-in-hand with the second rule, I can assure you, this extends beyond the moment of writing. Throughout the month, I didn't look back to find a theme or central character or to edit any previous days' poems. But most interestingly, my obsessions were still there, certain characters and stories and themes all found their way to the page regardless of my manufacturing. That, dear reader, is the true magic of writing.

What comes next?

Well, dear reader, I hope Jonathan Groff narrated that message in your mind. Now I take a minute to read through the collection as is, relishing the tangibility of pages, thinking back on the photos that only added to the challenge of crafting these 30 poems. After that, the real work begins. I’ll revise. I'll submit to literary magazines. One best friend will edit the hell out of the writing and maybe help arrange these poems. Or maybe the poems will remain in date order. Another best friend will listen to me narrate this collection over the phone, though she is many states away. And when it's time, I will send out the full collection, and hope for real publication.

And when that day comes and this book is real for you, too, dear reader, I hope you will find words that break you, if only just a little, stanzas to heal the hurt, memories to reflect on three years from now when we only whisper about the tragedies beheld in the year 2020.

Until then, reader, I hope you are well and safe. I hope you are paying attention to the world and speaking up as we battle injustice and hurt. I hope you are healing and growing and becoming better in every possible way.

One last thought in regards to what I’ve called these April poems. There is a reason we leave things on the mantle, dear reader. We wish to remember.

This book is me remembering.